Haven’t written much because honestly, all I can do is whine about being so lightheaded so often, though I am finally starting to get used to it. It’s all I really can do anyway. Not much else is going on. The week is progressing as it normally does. I work on various things, writing included. Still working out, taking care of the house… the usual stuff.
So like I said, I’m dizzy again and I can’t figure out what triggered it to start up again anymore than I can figure out why it backed off for those few weeks to a month like it did. Since they ruled out anything dangerous, I’m still leaning toward perimenopause. It’s annoying as hell, but I just gotta deal with it. We all have something most of the time as that’s just how humans are, and as long as it’s tolerable in the first place and the longer I have it, the more likely I am to get used to it. I just have to take breaks and lay down here and there throughout the day.
I try not to let it get me down, and I admit I started to get a little depressed last night, knowing it’s bound to go on for at least a few months like last time, but then I reminded myself that it’s not going to kill me. It’s just a sensation. An annoying one, but nothing deadly or that I can’t adapt to. Sometimes I have to remind myself that hey, even I’m tougher than that and there’s no reason I can’t learn to live with it. I can still live my life and do everything I normally do. I just have to take it slow at times. It may even go away for good someday since nothing usually lasts forever.
I’m also worried about the 3 appointments I have next month, though I know it’s pointless to worry because they’re going to be whatever they’re going to be. I just need to stand a firmer ground and remind my PCP that enough is enough with the damn medication. It’s silly to take statins to prevent problems I may never have. I don’t feel that extra cholesterol floating around in me, but I sure felt that sore throat the statins gave me, and I’m all about how I feel. Not what I might prevent or the numbers of years I can live. Right now my only problem is being lightheaded and I’d like to keep it that way.
No anxiety lately, but I kind of have some PMS symptoms even though I don’t feel like my period is just a few days away as scheduled. I’m retaining a little water and I’ve had more fatigue the last few days.
Looking forward to seeing S on Thursday as much as I’m not looking forward to seeing her. I always love to see her. She’s a wonderful person and very easy to talk to. But I sure will miss her, so there will be a bit of sadness when we say goodbye, so long as the shit doesn’t hit the fan again and send me back to her later on down the road.
Decided to give Pretty Little Liars another chance and am enjoying it so far. Scream was great, but there’s only one season available on Netflix. Love those continuing dramas, though, that keep you guessing as to who the culprit is.